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Pursued by God – Part 2

Monday, July 15, 2019 – Day 2 – Church Intensive Training – “Remember”

Journal Entry

Sunday was awesome. I have so much to say about it, but it will have to wait. I feel like God is pursuing me. He has woken me up the last two days shortly after 4 am. It was 4:19 am this morning, which is 1 minute before, I’d normally get up in Texas (6:20). The word He gave me this morning was Remember. Two verses came to mind, but after a search, I’m including a third.

  1. Isaiah 46:9 Remember the former things, those of long ago; I am God, and there is no other; I am God, and there is none like me.
  2. Revelation 2:4–5 Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken your first love. Remember the height from which you have fallen! Repent and do the things you did at first. If you do not repent, I will come to you and remove your lampstand from its place.
  3. Deuteronomy 32:7 Remember the days of old; consider the generations long past. Ask your father and he will tell you, your elders, and they will explain to you.

I’m not feeling rebuked right now; I’m feeling loved and pursued. I don’t feel like God is threatening to “take my lampstand”. But I have not been pursuing God as I have in the past. I’m feeling called back into fellowship in my quiet times. I also see God pointing to the early church and His Word.

Lord, show me today, as you did yesterday, what you mean with remember.

Right at this moment (6:30 am CA time, 8:30 am TX time), my phone rings. My old friend and neighbor Jake Tedesco called. After years of running from God and going through life the hard way, with a hard heart, Jake wanted to share that he had recently surrendered to Christ! Jesus had set him free from his anger, his drinking, his lack of self-worth. He was calling to say that he wanted those people who had been a godly influence on him to be back in his life. Talk about remembering!!! This was an immediate answer to my prayer. Praise God! You are on the move. Thank you for this.

Church Intensive Training – Morning Prayer and Worship

We had an almost two-hour prayer and worship time before we even started. This included song, prayer, scripture, prophetic words, and visions. So powerful. So moving. So simple.

Two amazing things happened during this time. First of all, Rob (our leader and pastor) asked if anyone had a “word” from God. I felt like God wanted me to share the prophetic word I dreamt about on Sunday. I searched for a scripture to support it (1 Corinthians 2:4-16). I said, “I feel like God wants us to explore Him, not just know Him”, and I read the verses. As soon as I finished, Randy (sitting to my left) read John 14:2. “In my father’s house are many mansions …” (KJV). I found out later that Randy did not know why he read that passage. He was prepared to read something else and God had him jump to John instead. This verse seemed out of place to everyone except me. Rob came back to me and asked me to repeat what I said. He wanted clarification. I gave the picture God had given me in my dream about the mansion and I validated the John 14:2 passage.

The other amazing part of this prayer time was that Pastor Brad (one of the attendees) had a vision of God removing wax from someone’s ear! Rob again asked if that meant anything to anyone in the room and I began to weep. I shared about my deafness in my left ear and how God used that to show me that we can barely hear Him when our lives are too noisy. Rob came and laid hands on my ears and prayed. I felt confirmation of my promise from God that I would someday hear again, but I was still on my journey to hear Him better spiritually. And boy am I hearing Him better this week. So encouraging!

Praying for one young man in our group who leads a ministry for inner-city kids in Philadelphia.
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Pursued by God – Part 1

The week of July 14, 2019, Denise and I attended a Church Intensive training put on by We Are Church. We are following a call God put on my heart to start a church in our house someday. This call is many years old and was reaffirmed during a Perspectives class in 2012, hosting church in our house during an ice storm in 2013, and most recently when I finished reading Francis Chan’s book called Letters to the Church. This four-day training was the next step in this journey. This multi-part blog is a recap of what God did that week. Each blog starts with my journal entry for the day, followed by a recap of how God showed up.

Sunday, July 14, 2019 – Day 1 – House Church – “Explore”

Journal Entry

Awoke early this morning (4:15) because we have an early start (6:30). God was stirring in me. Came in and out of sleep as I prayed at first and I had a dream of someone giving me a prophetic word (I never remember my dreams). The lady in the dream said, “God wants you to explore Him.” I asked God, “How is exploring you different from knowing you?” He gave me this analogy:

When a realtor sells a mansion, they know all about it – the size, the price, the upgrades, number of rooms/bathrooms. When a child enters the mansion, they explore it. They want to find the cool things about it – the hidden places, the secret things, places to play, places to hide, things to climb on. They are curious, full of life, fun-loving.

“Come explore me”, is what God said!

He then laid a verse on my heart. “Taste and see that the Lord is good.” I knew the verse, but not the reference so I asked God to reveal the reference so I would know it was from Him. He did not, but Google did. I felt strongly, though, that God would confirm that this verse was from Him.

Psalm 34:8 Taste and see that the Lord is good; blessed is the man who takes refuge in him.

Side Note: For the rest of my quiet time, I meditated on the whole Psalm. It starts with “I will extol the Lord at all times.” Since I don’t use the word extol, I had to look that one up. It means to bless.

Pastor Meeting

As we observed the pastor’s meeting that morning, Angel (one of the house church pastors and whose house we were staying in during the week) spoke about fasting. He said that we should not think about fasting as going hungry or abstaining from eating but rather as feasting on the Lord and feeding our soul. I thought about the verse, “Taste and see that the Lord is good.”

House Church

At 10:30 am we gathered in the house of Rob Zabala. He was our house church pastor and the man who taught our church intensive training all week. Rob had spent many years in prison, some time in solitary confinement, and was covered in tattoos, including the words f*** y** tattooed on his eyelids. But Jesus changed his heart in prison where he studied two years of seminary and eventually found his way to Francis Chan’s house church after he got out. He blessed us tremendously all week.

Our gathering consisted of Rob and his wife Sarah, their 11-year-old son Gerrett, their two youngest playing on the floor, two single moms, two young men, another young woman, few more kids running around and Matt, the pastor in training who lead our group that morning. The morning gathering was simple. We prayed and worshipped for about an hour and a half with people praying out loud, sharing scripture verses, singing songs (off-key) or singing along with songs on their phone. It was beautiful. The kids stayed in the room and made noise and the singing wasn’t perfect, but Jesus was there. The 11-year-old boy shared a song on his phone, a scripture and later asked for prayer for boldness in his faith. So cool! Toward the end of this time, one of the single moms started reading from the Psalms. “I will extol the Lord …”. There it was, Psalm 34. Of the 1200 chapters in the Bible, she read the one God shared with me that morning. This was the confirmation Jesus promised and I wept.

We discussed the prayer time together and the teaching time was not really teaching. Everyone in We Are Church (the organization of house churches started by Francis Chan) is on the same reading plan that takes you through the Bible in a year. Everyone shared what they had learned in the reading that week. Some shared questions on the hard parts and others provided answers or new perspectives. God’s Word was the lesson because it is enough. We finished the time with communion and after this, we talked a little more. The lady who had read Psalm 34 shared that she almost didn’t participate in communion because she didn’t feel she was in a good place in her relationship with God. I was able to encourage her letting her know how God used her to bless me. We then enjoyed a meal together and continued to fellowship with one another until sometime after 2:00.

It was an amazing day. Jesus was worshiped and glorified and we were all blessed. It wasn’t perfect and polished, but it was real.

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The Parable of the Shrewd Manager

I love the parables of Jesus. In many cases we can relate to the simple stories and see the deeper spiritual meaning, especially when Jesus explained himself. However, sometimes the parables are not so clear, or we can’t even relate to the topic in our lives today. Recently I led a small group discussion about the Parable of the Shrewd Manager in Luke 16. This is one of those parables that has always left me baffled, so I needed a little prayer and spiritual discernment before I could make sense of this one.

Luke 16:1-9 Jesus told his disciples: “There was a rich man whose manager was accused of wasting his possessions. 2 So he called him in and asked him, ‘What is this I hear about you? Give an account of your management, because you cannot be manager any longer.’

3 “The manager said to himself, ‘What shall I do now? My master is taking away my job. I’m not strong enough to dig, and I’m ashamed to beg— 4 I know what I’ll do so that, when I lose my job here, people will welcome me into their houses.’
5 “So he called in each one of his master’s debtors. He asked the first, ‘How much do you owe my master?’
6 “ ‘Eight hundred gallons of olive oil,’ he replied.
“The manager told him, ‘Take your bill, sit down quickly, and make it four hundred.’
7 “Then he asked the second, ‘And how much do you owe?’
“ ‘A thousand bushels of wheat,’ he replied.
“He told him, ‘Take your bill and make it eight hundred.’
8 “The master commended the dishonest manager because he had acted shrewdly. For the people of this world are more shrewd in dealing with their own kind than are the people of the light. 9 I tell you, use worldly wealth to gain friends for yourselves, so that when it is gone, you will be welcomed into eternal dwellings.

Really?! This guy was commended? What does this mean? If the rich man represents God and I am a steward like the manager then what is commendable about the debt forgiveness using someone else’s wealth? No matter what assumptions I made, I could not make sense of the story. That’s because I missed Jesus’ point. Jesus was not commending this man. God did not represent the rich man and was not commending this man. This was a parable about acting shrewdly and more specifically, Jesus declared, “the people of this world are more shrewd in dealing with their own kind than are the people of the light.”

What did he mean by that? Let’s reexamine the story and think about what the manager knew and how he responded. First, he knew he was going to lose his job. He didn’t react defensively so he probably considered the rich man’s actions justified. He also knew that he wasn’t strong enough to dig and was too ashamed to beg so he needed to position himself for a new job or at least a place to stay. Knowing he was on his way out he quickly approached each of his master’s debtors and helped them out by forgiving some of their debt in hopes of building rapport with them. The master (not Jesus) called these actions shrewd. Maybe the master himself operated in this conniving way, but that is not explicitly stated, nor does it really matter. His shrewd actions likely improved his position after he lost his job allowing him to be welcomed into people’s homes.

Jesus stated that people of the light don’t act this shrewdly with their own kind. This is where the parable should bring conviction. What I think Jesus meant is that we know we will one day leave this world and enter eternity when our time comes. What shrewd things are we doing to prepare for that day? When we meet Jesus face to face, will we receive the “Well done, good and faithful servant” praise? The economy of the kingdom of God is upside down in comparison with the economy of the world. The way we prepare for eternity requires a Jesus mindset. Take a look at some of these scriptures:

Luke 12:31–34 But seek his kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well. “Do not be afraid, little flock, for your Father has been pleased to give you the kingdom. Sell your possessions and give to the poor. Provide purses for yourselves that will not wear out, a treasure in heaven that will not be exhausted, where no thief comes near and no moth destroys. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

Matthew 19:29–30 And everyone who has left houses or brothers or sisters or father or mother or children or fields for my sake will receive a hundred times as much and will inherit eternal life. But many who are first will be last, and many who are last will be first.

Matthew 5:43–47 “You have heard that it was said, ‘Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.’ But I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, that you may be sons of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that?

Romans 12:20–21  On the contrary: “If your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink. In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head.” Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

Matthew 20:26–28 Instead, whoever wants to become great among you must be your servant, and whoever wants to be first must be your slave— just as the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many.”

Matthew 16:24–27 Then Jesus said to his disciples, “If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will find it. What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul? Or what can a man give in exchange for his soul? For the Son of Man is going to come in his Father’s glory with his angels, and then he will reward each person according to what he has done.

Matthew 25:22–23 “The man with the two talents also came. ‘Master,’ he said, ‘you entrusted me with two talents; see, I have gained two more.’ “His master replied, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master’s happiness!’

The theme here is clear. There is reward and treasure in heaven and it is available for those who humble themselves, love others, take care of their enemies, are generous with their possessions and who seek God’s kingdom first. This is kingdom shrewdness and Jesus said the people of the light don’t do it as well as we should.

Jesus went on to say a few more things about wealth as you read on in Luke 16. In verse 9 He told us to use worldly wealth to gain friends for ourselves. Be generous, bless people with it. After all, it will be gone someday. In so doing you will be welcomed into eternal dwellings. Maybe these eternal dwellings represent those people who received the salvation and love of Jesus Christ through your generosity and love. Finally, Jesus gave parting words to the pharisees when he said, “God knows your hearts. What is highly valued among men is detestable in God’s sight.” Luke 16:15b

We need to be shrewd enough to know what is highly valued in God’s sight and to invest in those things.

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